on April 15^th, i will be turning 28…

and as wonderful as i usually make my birthday out to be, i can’t exactly say if it is something that i am looking forward to this time around.

typically, i do a yearly recap of my previous age in order to see what i have accomplished and how i can improve the following year…

but reflecting right now doesn’t seem so appeasing.

don’t get me wrong…

i do have a lot going for me.

and i am in no way complaining about my life, because it is pretty satisfying…

but where i envisioned myself at this age is most definitely not where i am…

and being simply “satisfied” is not something that i strive to settle for.

growing up, i imagined that by my late-20’s i would be a somebody:

a somebody with a dazzling something job, living in an amazing somewhere with an incredible someone and a beautifully charming family of my own…

but i’m not there yet.

and currently looking at my calendar, i’m not even close!

(of course i also thought that i would be a renowned movie star who doubled as an insanely perfect singer…)

nonetheless, how is it that at such a young age i was so certain of where i would be…

and now that i’m actually here, i’m not?

is it safe to assume that the plans that i had when i was younger were merely a figment of my colorful imagination?

and as unsure as i sound, am i really going to be okay with it?

i am definitely not one to coincide a person’s age with whether or not they should be married…

or how long before it’s too long to have children…

and my stance on that matter has yet to change.

therefore, i believe that maybe my biggest botheration is with where i am at (or really, am not) in my desired career…

so seeing as how i get to make one truly ideal wish, i am publicly wishing to become a famous writer for a deliciously fabulous magazine.

and even though you are technically not supposed to tell people what you wished for, for fear that it won’t come true; i’m trying a few things differently in this 28^th year of my life…

so happy birthday month, Shekardaneh…

and here’s to countless more.

cheers!