i have a problem with apologizing…

i use the phrase, “i’m sorry” more often than i say “hi”, and it is beginning to get progressively worse.

i have never been the kind of person who is too stubborn to admit when they are wrong, and i do not shy away from being the first to give in…

because not every damn thing needs to be a competition.

but i have noticed myself requesting forgiveness when i haven’t necessarily even done anything faulty…

and that just doesn’t seem to be fair.

as unapologetically selfish as i am, i care a great deal about the people in my life…

a heart bursting amount, actually.

which is why when i feel like something is bothering someone who i adore (even if it was not done so by me), i automatically express regret and say that i am sorry…

and it is teetering on excessive.

i mean, as genuinely and sincerely upset as i feel, i need to realize that my sadness is not always required…

and an apology isn’t constantly warranted, nor necessary.

i worry that my offering of remorse will exponentially lose its value…

but yet somehow, i cannot retract my deprecatingly innocent tongue in time.

i’m sorry, but i just can’t help it!